What the pluck is up???
So yeah, I'm deciding to do things differently. No more musing into constant hurt and blah that is my current love life and romantic situation. I'm not looking away from my ish, so fear not. But I'm trying to shift my focus to me and not the movement of others. And let me be clear my emotional state is steady and my heart is weighted by the totality of my life right now but all told I gotta focus on the rest, cause that's all i can handle.
and so... I'm gonna be as vulnerable and truthful with as many people as I can...yay...fun!!!
I've run from this before now. My self-esteem and self-worth have been way to fragile to risk disappointing someone who loved me already to tell them a truth that could change that view. But when it all comes down I have to follow the wisdom I pass to others on this subject. That if someone stops loving me after hearing the truth, then they never really loved me to begin with, or ther person they loved wasn't the real me, so unless I feel like fronting for the rest of my days that relationship was gonna end anyways, so que lastima, so long, best of lukc and life to you...
I go through fazes of wanting to be one of the cool kids. I see facebook album of old friends all together and smiling and hate that I'm not apart of that sometimes. When did we grow apart? Does it have to be so permenant? If it does then I have to be okay with it, if it doesn't then I have to be ok with doing the work to stay more connected to the lives of people i want in my life.
the Falcons lost...that blows
I know I'm weird and all but sometimes I surprise myself...like is it normal for a dude to sit around thinking of possible names for the kids he'll one day help create??
I'm tired now...
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3. is it weird for u, a guy, to sit around thinking about the names of the future children you may one day create? umm.. not weird... just... not typical... but it's cool it reflects your desire to be an involved parent... and we need more men seeking to do as such... now please know as i've told kainda.. i WILL make fun of your kids if you give him/her a funny name be it african... american... made-up....;0)
1. you ARE a cool kid! i think once you realize the only time you aren't a cool kid is when you're lookin to be that cool kid.. cool just is.. be the kool kat daddy
2. i have the same struggle with keepin up with relationships...(sigh) most of the time it doesn't bother me but when i see my friends going on trips.. wish i was there (mind you my life is not yet at a point where i can request vacation days.. even if i could i don't keep in contact enough to reflect my desire to join in on the travels)
4. you are enough kind of goes back to #1... YOU ARE ENOUGH (-_-) don't think I can say it enough...
Heath, Love
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